Sometimes People Just Have Nothing To Say To You

The thing about loneliness is…

…when you dont have the friends and things to do keep you busy…

…the little things don’t mean much.

I have opened up about how lonely I am. I only have my parents to open up to and then I had opened up (i feel too much) online about how lonely I am. My parents have nothing to say. Literally, they said “sorry” and that was it. That killed me. Sometimes we dont want to take advice from people, but in the case of the people closest to me…they dont even have anything to say. Theres no advice. Theres a “sorry“. thats harder to hear than advice i dont want.  i say im bored a lot in life. im not particularly bored im just not motivated. i have so much i can do and think up to do. its the same old stuff. thats ok. im just not motivated. but then again i dont have what i call “immediate” things to do. i say “immediate” because im referring to the lack of things to do my geographic area. my living in the rural cuts off things to do that are closer to home. also resources.

sometimes i question if many of my organs still exist or if they have just evaporated or melted and have been digested and excreted from my body.

One thought on “Sometimes People Just Have Nothing To Say To You

  1. So sorry you’re going through these feelings. I can relate to the not feeling motivated. I feel like this quite a bit. I think the depression takes away motivation. I wish I had answers for you but I don’t know how to advise you. Since you are in a rural area it does make it hard for you to get out and do things. For me I live close to downtown Dallas and there are tons of things to do but I don’t want to be around people so I chose not to do things. I work and go to the grocery store when needed but mostly prefer to be at home. It is a terrible cycle. Hang in there!

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